Mary Oliver speaks no more to me

The poet clawed her

way into sand,

invaded the nest of

turtle eggs and

removed 13 round eggs to

make an omelette.

 

The poet used a knife

to open the raw eggs

because a sharp tap on

a metal pot rim just wouldn’t

do the trick.

 

Then the poet chose four

words to describe her

egg feast.

 

I ate with attention, whimsy,

devotion and respect, she said.

 

Her words stopped me,

stopped my mind.

 

I inhaled into a new reality—one

where a woman who has poured forth

poetry on creatures as diverse as owls

and deer and grasshoppers—a poet I have

revered for years…

This poet clawed her way into sand.

 

This poet used a knife

to open a coven of raw eggs.

 

And the poet’s four words, chosen

to pull me into the orbit

of her world, chosen to justify—

with whimsy sprinkled into the mix

like a condiment—have instead failed me,

forever more.

 

No, I said to myself, no.

Yes, I say now and to all who care

to hear, I will draw a strong black line

between life and

needless death.